Touched #1-The Sword is available on Google Play Book

HEY, YEAH. BOOK 1 IS AVAILABLE ON GOOGLE PLAY BOOK 

So, news for Touched

My laptop gave up on me after the abuse it suffered under my hands.

I stole my sister's laptop to post this.

I HAVE GREAT NEWS. LOOK WHAT I HAVE!!!

My book is here! ISN'T IT PRETTY!!

I love it, simple and so gorgeous *strokes book*, it has it's flaws though and of course I found a few typos but hey, nothing that can be fixed.

I am so happy!!!!!

And now, if only I can get another laptop so I can get book 2 and 3 done. And my other works as well.

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I looked at him and he looked at me, waiting for me to react.

Something dark exists deep inside of him. Very dark and very deep, it hides behind the amiable smile and his ever-changing eyes. It is angry, unrelenting and unforgiving in both nature and spirit.

But looking at him, at the golden, revolting perfection of his features, you don’t see it. Or maybe if you do—a peculiar look on his face when the shadows fall in just the right place, a bitter bite in the usually soothing tone of his voice—you persuade yourself that it is just your imagination. Like a magician, he waves his hand and you look elsewhere.

But it is too late for me to deny or to pretend. I’ve seen the dark inside him and have answered its call.

To all eyes, he is the angel on my shoulder but I know better.

He is the big bad wolf—

—the poisonous apple—

—the hunter’s knife digging deep between my ribs.

Hunter Knife

Copyright © 2010 by D.F. Jules

3Murphy's Law

My classes started off pretty well. 

I had Mrs. Delilah for history, the same as last year. However, I was surprised to find Juliet waving at me from the back of the class, an empty seat beside her. I guessed the teachers had finally learned their lesson and divided the Triplets into different classes; and lucky me, I was going to share each of my classes with at least one of them. 

It seemed that the teachers assumed that I would have a calming influence on the Triplets. A lot they knew. 

Juliet smiled when I settled into the empty seat, and immediately caught me up on all the juicy gossip that she had managed to glean from her friends. Since Mrs. Delilah was known for her one sided love affair with the whiteboard and her distaste for talking to anyone who was under twenty, Juliet could do this without much sneaking around. 

I spread my gaze around the class. Actually, not even one of my fellow students had the decency to even pretend to pay attention. Even the geeks who sat in front of the class held either an e-book reader or a DS in their hands. 

Juliet tapped me softly on the arm and I returned my eyes to my cousin, her blue eyes observing me sharply. 

I wiped a hand over my face, just in case the candy bar I had snacked on showed at the corners of my mouth. “What?” 

“Nothing happened this morning, right?” Juliet’s blue eyes softened. “I mean, we shouldn’t have left you alone for so long…” 

I glanced at her and saw the worry etched clearly on her heart-shaped face. The Triplets didn’t know about my talent, but they knew something was wrong with me. They heard me scream in my sleep, saw the panic attacks in crowded places, and noticed the way I reacted when people encroached on my personal space. 

They’d grown protective of me over the years. They hardly ever invited new people to the house, never left me with strangers or alone for too long, and every time I couldn’t sleep, one of them was always around to talk to me. 

They knew something was up with me, but they never asked—and I wasn’t ever going to tell. 

Juliet squirmed in her seat when I remained quiet. “I saw Gabe and knew he’d find you right away.” She frowned, and the expression promised hell to Gabriel if he hadn’t. “He did, right?” 

I scratched my nose and nodded. “Yeah, he was with me.” 

Juliet beamed. “Good. How was he? He just came back from Borneo, right?” 

I nodded again and shared what Gabriel had told me. Anything to get Juliet off my back. Would I ever stop freaking every time my cousins implied that they know something was wrong with me? I didn’t think so. 

Would I ever stop feeling ashamed every time they thought that they had to protect me from the big bad world? 

Nope. 

To think that if I thought something was wrong with me, Juliet—small and delicate looking Juliet—would ride to my rescue was enough to have me feeling disgustingly useless. And I knew if Juliet was on the move, Ophelia and Titania would never be too far behind. They had the Triplet telepathy down to a science, a skill that gotten them out of trouble so many times before. 

I probably wouldn’t be too embarrassed if it was Ophelia doing the rescuing rather than Juliet or, God forbid, Titania. 

Ever since they’d reached puberty, the Triplets have been hell bent on being completely different from each other. While Titania chose to paint her hair ebony, join the drama club, and write angst-ridden poetry. Juliet had decided to stay blond and win every academia award in the school simply to break the dumb-blond stereotype. Ophelia, however, had cut her waist length hair up to her neck, dyed it blazing Alias red, and joined every dojo in the neighborhood that she could ride her bike to. 

Every Sunday after the family run, Tai Chi, Yoga, and sparring, Ophelia and I held our own sparring match in the house’s old garage, which we had renovated into a dojo of our own. By our count, we were even last Sunday and although it was still humiliating to have 5-foot-nothing Ophelia slam my face against the practice mat I never hesitated to crow with triumph whenever I won. Ophelia was small, sure, but she fought dirty, and I felt pride that I could kick her ass. 

Juliet frowned. “I don’t think I’ll see him today. I don’t have any classes with him.” 

“You can join us for lunch.” 

Juliet grimaced. “And watch him stuff his face with everything I want to eat but can’t because I don’t want to grow into a blimp? I don’t think so.” She sliced a glance toward me and poked her bottom lip out. “It’s not fair how you guys can eat buckets of food and not gain an ounce.” 

It was an age-old complaint of the Triplets, one that I enjoyed very much—but I mustered a sympathetic expression. “Well, at least you’ve got boobs.” 

Juliet perked up before looking down at her body to admire said boobs. “They are quite nice, aren’t they?” 

I stifled a smile at the way Juliet innocently patted her own boobs, drawing the attention of several boys and girls alike. “They’re definitely better than mine.” 

I was used to the blasé way the Triplets invaded my privacy and personal space, so I didn’t flinch when Juliet’s big, blue eyes zoomed in on my boobs like nobody’s business. At least she didn’t reach out a hand and poke them like she would have if we were in private. “It’s not the size that matters, Leah. It’s how you flaunt it.” 

I just had to laugh at Juliet’s cheerful advice. “You do know that Uncle Jim would have a cow if he heard you say that, right?” 

The curve on Juliet’s lips was wicked and sly. “I’m sure Gabriel like your boobs just fine.” 

I didn’t even bother to sigh; the Triplets had ragged me off and on about Gabriel on a daily basis over summer break. “I’m sure that Gabe doesn’t even notice that I have them.” 

Complete lie. Before we had parted for the summer Gabriel had indicated very clearly that he had noticed that I was a girl, and therefore have boobs. As if she was reading my mind—and I wouldn’t put it beneath her—Juliet scoffed. “Please. He’s a dude. He noticed your boobs. Trust me.” 

“Fine.” I agreed. “But in a strictly friendly kind of way.” 

Juliet snorted a laugh. “Do me a favor and tell that to Titania so she can write rude, sarcastic poetry about how you and Gabriel are ‘just friends’.” 

“We are friends.” 

Another lie. Wow, I was really racking them up. At least this time it was partially true. 

“Uh-hm. And we didn’t actually see you guys kiss right before he left for Borneo?” 

If I had been drinking something, Juliet would be dripping with it. Since I wasn’t, I merely gaped at her. “Wha-what?” 

Juliet’s grin was wide and smug. “We heard him knock on your window at three o’clock in the morning. If you guys wanted to keep it a secret, he shouldn’t have been so loud.” 

“He had to go real early so he figured it’d be his only chance to—” 

“—kiss you goodbye?” Juliet’s grin became even wider. 

“We weren’t—” All right, there was no way to get around this but to admit the truth and downplay it. “It was just an experiment.” 

This time Juliet chortled gleefully. “Of what? How fast you could get each other hot? Cause, I’ll tell you, just watching you guys kiss steamed up my window pretty quick.” 

I felt the hot flush rising up my cheeks and I flicked a pencil over at Juliet, which she easily caught. Damn her and her stupid cheerleader reflexes. “Keep your voice down.” I narrowed my black eyes. “You guys didn’t tell anybody about this, right?” 

She flicked the pencil back, which I ignored. It landed and rolled on top of my desk. “If you don’t want anyone to gossip about you, you should’ve told him to come inside your room.” She flashed me a smile. “I bet that would’ve added a little more spice to the rumor mill.” 

“I told you, it was just an experiment. I asked him to kiss me.” I rubbed my nose. It didn’t feel like it was growing longer. 

Juliet looked skeptical. “Why?” 

I shrugged, then rolled my eyes. “It’s not like I have a lot of guys lining up to date me. I got curious, so…” I let her fill in the blanks. 

“And he just said okay?” 

“Why not? It’s only a kiss.” I ducked down and pretended to search for something inside my bag. I wasn’t sure my nonchalant expression could hold up against the intensity of Juliet’s blue eyes. 

When Juliet didn’t continue with her sets of questions, I figured she had accepted my explanation—I was sure Juliet had heard crazier things than best friends kissing each other—but no, when I finally lifted my head, Juliet’s eyes immediately latched back onto mine. Her expression was strangely understanding. “If you say so.” 

“I do.” 

I remembered the day we were talking about like it was yesterday instead of months ago. I remembered feeling disgruntled and majorly peeved that I had to get out of my warm bed. I remembered scowling at his grinning face, and I remembered, most of all, the overwhelming panic I felt over him leaving. 

Needless to say, I had abandonment issues. 

“Nice bed hair. Trying out a new style?” was the first thing he’d said when I slid the window open. His pale green eyes were way too clear and bright for the ungodly hour. I was tempted to throw something at him. 

“Bite me. What are you doing here?” I pushed the curtains back and opened the window wider, shivering in my pajamas when a cold gust of wind blew in. “Come in, it’s too cold outside.” 

He lifted an eyebrow. “You’re not going to make a habit of inviting boys into your room while I’m away, right?” 

His mouth curved when I narrowed my eyes. He always did have a perverse sense of humor. 

He shuffled his feet and shoved his hands into his pockets, his shoulder hunched against the cold air of early morning. “We’re going to leave early so I might not see you. I figured I’d just say goodbye now.” 

I blinked and combed my fingers through my hair, fighting not to make a fist and pull. He must’ve seen something on my face, though, because he took his hands out of his pockets and reached for mine, untangling them from my hair. “I’ll be back when school starts.” His eyes searched mine and he tried out a comforting smile, as if he knew what his absence meant to me. Maybe he did. “I’ll email you when I get there.” 

I kept my hands lax in his, even when he tangled our fingers together. I hated feeling needy, hated the fact that every time he left with his travel-loving parents to some obscure corner of the world, I couldn’t stomach going out of my house because I was too afraid. So I kept my fingers relaxed in his, kept my stance comfortable, although my toes curled into the fluffy rug that was spread across my bedroom floor as my mind screamed, Don’t leave. Don’t leave me. 

“All right. Safe journey and don’t enjoy yourself too much. We all know what’ll happen when you do.” I maintained an easy expression on my face. It was getting easier, acting like I was okay and wrapping my tongue around a lie. 

But Gabriel was Gabriel, and like the Triplets, he might not know all that was going on with me but he could sniff out my emotions like a bloodhound. 

“Listen,” he said and squeezed my fingers, his almond shaped eyes—a mark of his Asian genes—met mine. “I want to try something.” 

Curiosity swam clear of my panic and sense of loss. “What?” 

He hesitated, looked away, and then looked back at me. “I want to kiss you.” 

I blinked. “Okay.” 

Now both of his eyebrows sailed upwards into his hairline. “Okay? Just like that?” 

I rolled my eyes. “It’s not like we’ve never kissed before, and if I remember correctly back then I was the one who asked you.” 

“We were ten.” 

I was kind of insulted by the subtle disparaging tone in his voice. Sure, the kiss wasn’t fireworks and magic, but it was soft and it was sweet and heck, it was my first kiss. It was my only kiss. And we laughed ourselves silly afterwards. “So?” 

I scowled when he looked at me as if I was missing something very important. “What?” 

He smiled and the smile grew into a grin that evolved into a chuckle. I was tempted to follow through with the urge to whap him over the head when he suddenly pulled on my hands and kissed me. 

When he angled his head and his hand covered my nape, I understood why he had laughed at me. Obviously, Gabe had learned some major new tricks over the space of seven years. 

The fingers on my nape slipped into my hair while his other hand ran up my spine and curved over my shoulder, pressing me closer to him. 

All the while his mouth stayed on mine. 

His lips were cool and slightly dry, but they warmed and softened over mine as seconds crept by, and I noticed there were certain advantages to kissing a boy who was only slightly taller than me. 

Then Gabe shifted slightly and opened his mouth against mine. My heart stuttered and decided to pump faster and harder inside my chest, beating a rapid thudthudthud against my ribs. We certainly didn’t kiss like this when we were ten. I kept my fingers on the curtains, crushing the soft, thick material with my fingers as the harmless kiss grew sharp edges by the second. His lips moved slowly but firmly over mine, and their gentle pressure coaxed my lips open, just a little, and I heard a low muffled sound from Gabe which I took for approval. 

At least, I hoped it was approval. 

Belatedly, as Gabe’s fingers held onto me tighter and his lips moved even surer against mine, I realized what was happening. The repercussions of what we were doing dropped on me like an Acme anvil. But it still took several seconds for me to touch my hands to Gabe’s chest—which of course he took as encouragement rather than a lame attempt to stop him. 

My thoughts scattered when Gabe stroked a thumb over my cheekbone and softly, gently ran the tip of his tongue against my bottom lip. 

Shivers streaked up my spine and my knees locked into place but I managed to tear my mouth from his and gasp out, “Gabe, stop.” 

I was torn between admiration and insult when Gabe immediately did just that. His hands dropped to his sides while he took a step back. His eyes—usually mild and humorous, but now wearing a darker, predatory gleam—stayed on mine. When those familiar eyes with the unfamiliar light dropped to my swollen lips, I almost closed the window on his face. 

But he looked away, breathing in air with big gulps, until after taking one long breath he finally looked back at me. 

His expression was almost back to normal, but I could see the slight tightness around his eyes, the way he pressed his lips together, which only made mine buzz even stronger. 

“So,” I said when we only managed to stare at each other. I tried a smile. “How did I mark in this experiment of yours?” 

I knew it was the wrong thing to say when he went still. No one grew still like Gabe could, even our karate sensei commented on it. It was the stillness of animals, of hunters, of soldiers. The stillness lasted two seconds, four, before his stance relaxed. His grin was wide and all kinds of wrong, and I squelched the guilt that pricked at my heart. 

“Not bad.” He said, his eyes glittering in the soft light of my night-light. “You need a little more practice, though.” 

It was a sign. I figured surely there couldn’t be a more obvious opening line than that. I plastered a small smile on my face and went in for the kill. “Maybe I’ll get a little more practice while you’re away. Summer love and all that.” 

Something passed over Gabe’s face, like a passing cloud over the path of the moon in a midnight sky. His eyes locked onto my face, and I had to fight to keep a smile there. But I managed, because this was important. At that exact second, nothing was more important than this. I couldn’t lose Gabe, and as clichéd as it was, getting involved with Gabe in that way would only muck things up, and I really didn’t know how to survive without Gabe as my best friend. 

Lying to him when he was my best friend was bad enough. 

What if I ended up like my mother, disappearing into thin air? 

It would kill my family and Gabe would— 

I didn’t want to think of how Gabe would react. It hurt too much and the possibilities were too many. So, with that in mind, when Gabe reached out a hand to hold mine, I softly pulled away, and saw the light inside his eyes dimmed. 

“Bye, Gabe. Be careful, all right?” 

Gabe’s eyes watched me for a full minute before he stuck his hands inside his pockets and nodded. “Okay, you too.” 

His eyes strayed to mine before he pivoted, jogged, and vaulted over the fence that parted our houses. 

When he turned as if to look at me, I pulled away from the window and closed it tight. 

I made harmless doodles on my notes as I remembered, absently listening to Mrs. Delilah’s rambling. Those months while he was away had been a practice in self-reliance, self-control, and sheer denial; but I decided that maybe it was exactly what we needed. 

Besides, Gabe could snap his fingers and girls would line three deep in front of him, anxious for his attention. So I was pretty sure he’d get over his…curiosity soon enough, and from the way he had sidled up to me this morning like he had done every previous day of our lives, I figured he already had. 

I ignored the twinge in my heart and sighed softly, relieved to have managed to avoid such a crisis that could have gone all levels of wrong. But now that Gabriel was back and it seemed we had returned to our usual status quo, everything in my life was as it should be. 

I could almost forget the feeling of gloom that I had felt when I woke up this morning. 

False alarm, I convinced myself. Sure, they were hanging out in the school in larger numbers than usual but that wasn’t so odd. All I needed to focus on was to get good grades, do my chores, and concentrate on ignoring everything else that didn’t involve those two things. If I did that and kept my head low, what could possibly go wrong? 

My stomach plummeted as those words echoed inside my head and the fine hairs on the back of my neck rose straight up at attention. 

No. No way. 

I kept my head down but inched my eyes toward the front of the class where Mrs. Delilah had paused in the middle of a sentence because someone had knocked on the door. 

Impossible. 

I watched as Mrs. Delilah greeted the tall, lanky stranger, and tried to ignore the hum of interest from my classmates. 

“He’s new. I met him in the teachers’ lounge,” Juliet whispered, but I was busy hunching over my seat, trying to make myself invisible as best as I could. 

Mrs. Delilah clapped her hands and waved in the new student, her face wreathed with one of her rare smiles. “Class, we have a new student. His name is Justin Real and I’m sure we’ll do everything we can to help him settle down.” 

I sliced a glance toward my classmates’ faces and watched them smile at ‘Justin Real’, looking at him like he was some kind of god. But that was how it had always been when normal people met one of them. They couldn’t help but gravitate toward them, be influenced by them. After all, that was why they were made. 

To be influenced. To be persuaded. To be prepared. 

I watched my classmates, including David Wile—the class bully—make way for him as he walked with long, wide steps to his chair—which was on the other side of the class. 

Thank God for small mercies. 

The answer to my unvoiced question, what could possibly be wrong? 

Apparently everything. 

Because Justin Real, the new student, was Touched. 

I could deal with people who were Touched, but Justin Real wasn’t just Touched. My eyes slid a couple of inches from Justin to the shiny, shimmering profile which stood silently behind him, unseen by normal eyes. 

He was also sporting a rare, one-of-a-kind accessory. Justine Real had, for lack of a better word, a Guardian Angel backing him up on his first day of school. 

Talk about overkill. 

And just when it seemed things couldn’t get any worse, the shiny, shimmering profile turned, as if it sensed me or my thoughts, and although I couldn’t see its face, I knew it was looking at me. 

I tore my eyes away from it and stared down at my desk. Sweat dribbled down the middle of my back to pool at the waistband of my skirt. Sunrise burst inside my mouth and sounds, eerie and rapturous, erupted inside my head. My skin felt as if it was trying to crawl away from my body, and the room was simply too hot. Suddenly faced with everything that I had tried to avoid my whole life, I did what any normal seventeen year old would do; I went up to the teacher and feigned some sort of vague illness. And this time I didn’t have to lie very much. I already felt and looked the part.

Copyright © 2012 by D.F. Jules

2Hell, Thy Name is Highschool

On the first day of high school three years ago, I joined the Chess Club. 

Now, now, before all of you groan and commit me to the crazy and loser box, you should know that at Trinity High, the Chess Club was actually quite respectable, as was shown by the prime spot reserved for us in the school quad. 

Even now, right under the shade of the old, gigantic tree that has been there since forever, my club-mates were working out their cognitive abilities and exercising their mental muscle. 

The teachers thought that the reason the chess players were left alone was because the Chess Club had won several chess tournaments, proving that we were in fact a group to contend with. The main reason why we did not suffer cruel acts of punishment and humiliation was because of the underground poker game we held each year. 

For the past three years, the undisputed champion of said poker game was, surprisingly, our very own chairman, who used his winnings to procure lovely collector’s item chess sets of both Alice in Wonderland and The Lord of the Rings. 

Even I had to admit, the money was well spent. 

After nodding at some familiar faces, I hunkered down my spot under our club's usual tree and lied on my back, watching the way sunlight danced through the thick green leaves. Usually, I preferred to be in some dark corner of the school where there wouldn’t be too many people wandering around, intruding on my time and personal space, but that was nothing that stylish shades and a well-chosen playlist couldn’t help. 

If only this method worked against them. 

But no, they were too bright, too loud, too involved to be ignored, muffled or avoided. 

That was one of the first things I had learned. There was no avoiding them. Wherever there were people, there they were, watching, observing, listening…influencing. 

And considering the fact that Trinity High was teeming with teenagers, susceptible and impulsive, they swarmed the place. I couldn’t turn my head without seeing one or two, or in some special cases, three, hovering around someone or another. 

I tried shutting my eyes, closing my ears, and numbing my senses, but nothing worked. I just had to work around it like my mother and my Uncle had told me to, and pretend that I couldn’t see them, that I didn’t know about them. 

I wondered how long I could keep this up before I joined the padded-cells brigade. 

I ran my tongue over my teeth and swallowed when I tasted…sunlight; bright, golden, and hot, and knew that one was close. That was the trouble, my talent didn’t just stop at seeing or hearing like my mom’s, I could literally taste their presence, sense them in the air. Even now I felt heat creeping up my arm as if I was standing in the sun instead of lying in the shade and I felt the urge to open my eyes and see—the way a character in a horror movie would feel when there was someone or something breathing down their neck; and instead of running they turned, only to find an axe murderer or some kind of evil beastie. 

I felt my heart pump faster and I could feel sweat gathering at my temples, despite the shade. I tried to steady my breathing—it wouldn’t do to attract attention, and they would hear and notice my elevated heart rate and my clear distress—but the more I pulled breath into my lungs, the more I could smell them, the more I tasted them, and that jacked up my heartbeat even more. 

I pressed my lips together to stop myself from mumbling incoherently, and my thoughts shifted to the Triplets. They could calm me down, they could take my mind off my panic, but I knew the Triplets would be holding court by now and would be too busy to take care of me. The Triplets were popular, they were the very symbol of the High Court of Trinity High (triplets, Trinity, big laughs all around). They were what other people thought would never have existed. They were popular and they were nice. 

So, being nice and being related to me, they would of course stop whatever they were doing to baby their weird, crazy cousin; but today that didn’t cut it for me, and because of that I didn’t stand up and run to the Triplets. Instead, I kept quiet and did mental visualizations. 

“Ah, sleeping beauty.” 

I almost cried in relief at the low, familiar voice, and did in fact feel my eyes sting when the voice affected me the way it always did. The raspy, almost touchable tones changed vowels and consonants into a web, a filter, a cocoon that blanketed my senses. 

“Are you really sleeping?” 

I concentrated on the cadences of that sweet, sweet voice, and almost melted to the ground beneath my back. I saw the brightness pulled back from my eyelids, tasted nothing on my tongue but the banana pancakes I had eaten for breakfast and felt the heat smothered by the moist coolness of the early morning rain. 

I rolled my eyes behind closed lids when I felt a finger poke my shoulder. “Hey, are even you alive?” 

I opened my eyes to meet pale green eyes framed by sooty lashes, those mischievous eyes in sharp relief on the strong, tanned face. 

“Gabe.” I kept my supine position on the grass but crossed my legs at the ankles and added a smirk for good measure. My nod was polite enough, but the body language was insolent and challenging. 

His smile grew an inch wider. 

“I thought you weren’t going to come home for two more weeks.” 

He shrugged broad shoulders. Even in the morning before class, his white uniform shirt was already wrinkled, his striped blue-yellow tie stuffed into his pocket, and his sleeves pushed to the elbows. The build under the shirt was slender but hard muscled, the type that you didn’t get by working religiously at a gym but by sheer, laborious, field work. Same goes for the tan and the gold highlights on his raggedly cut brown hair, which was now pulled into a half ponytail. No sitting in the salon for Gabe; he got it the old fashioned way, spending lots of hours beneath the glaring heat of the sun. 

He sat down beside me, blocking the school building and everything inside it from my sight. “Cut due to some problems.” 

I perked up at the mention of ‘problems.’ I knew when it came to my best friend in the whole wide world that these so-called problems would range from (accidentally) setting something on fire to fooling around with a reverend’s daughter. Two things that Gabriel Shannah had been known to do, without a qualm and without remorse. “What kind of problems?” I asked archly, and received a slow wink in return. 

“The kind that you don’t talk about if you don’t want trouble.” 

“You always want trouble.” I considered pouting, but since it didn’t come naturally to me I decided not to bother. I was too psyched about his presence to complain. “How was Borneo anyway?” 

Gabriel brushed away strands of hair from his face and squinted green eyes across the quad, exchanging nods and waves with friends and acquaintances. In spite of him being the chairmen of the Chess Club, or maybe because of that, Gabe was considered one of the cool kids. 

“Hot. Humid. Green.” 

“Traveled much?” 

“Went to Indonesia.” He grinned. “Saw orang utans.” 

A gasp of envy escaped my lips; seeing orang utans was on my lists of 100 Things to Do Before I Die. “You did not.” 

The cocky, smug grin on Gabe’s face made me wanted to pound him. “Yes, I did. Do you know that ‘orang utan’ actually means, literally, ‘people of the forest’?” 

“Actually, I do.” Now I did feel a sulk coming, but curiosity won, like always. “What were they like?” 

“They’re very sweet and gentle.” Gabe’s usually bright green eyes dulled. “It’s hard to believe that humans could hurt such an animal.” 

“We hurt each other all the time when we actually have the option to talk to each other.” I sat up but paused when I saw him watching me with an indescribable look on his face. “What?” 

His long, lean fingers played with the grass by his feet. I started to get nervous as I noted several changes which had taken place in Gabe over the months in which we hadn’t seen each other. He finally took his eyes off of my face and stood up. “Nothing. It’s just that other people would have put that sentence in a different way. They would say, ‘people hurt each other all the time.’” He brushed a hand over the seat of his pants. “They would set themselves apart, rather than use the word ‘we’ like you did.” 

I frowned in thought, even as I automatically put a hand in his. I patted my own butt and kept frowning as I slid my hands over my knee-high uniform socks. “Well, I poke at you and the Triplets all the time just for the hell of it, not only when I'm angry at you. So, I’m hardly exempt from the general rule.” 

Gabriel lifted a hand to my waist-length hair and shook blades of grass off of it. “That’s true, it’s just that some people won’t admit it.” 

“Well, I’m not some people.” Never were there truer words spoken. 

Gabriel merely snorted and lifted both his arms over his head, slowly stretching like a big cat after a nap in the sun. I noticed something and caught his arm. “Wait.” 

He turned halfway and lifted an eyebrow, and like every other time he’d done that I felt the sudden urge to poke his eye out. 

I circled him slowly before finally stopping right in front of him. “You’re taller than me.” 

Gabriel blinked and a smile crept onto his face before he threw his head back and laughed. “You’ve always bitched about being taller than everybody else, but now that you‘re not, you’re mad?” 

It was true, all my life I had been the skinny, gawky, tall kid. As soon as I noticed that at five nine I’d topped most of the girls and boys in my school, I realized that I should learn to either get comfortable with my height or end up as the Hunchback of Trinity High. 

No-brainer. 

“What are you? Seven feet tall?” I asked, disgusted. 

“Six two actually.” Gabriel preened before my scowling face. 

“Freak.” 

“Mutant.” 

We started walking again, and I realized that he was stealing looks at me. 

“You’re growing out your hair again?” 

I clutched at my hair. It was real black, the kind of black that had blue highlights in the sun. It was straight as rain, cut with multiple lengths, and ran down almost to my waist. It was the one thing I was really vain about. “Well, I figured you’d grown out of the hair-pulling phase of your life, so it’s now safe for me to have long hair again.” 

Gabriel snickered and pulled at a chunk of my hair. “Don’t be so sure. I might have a few relapses now and again.” 

“Well, then I’ll just punch you and hope you’ll recover.” 

“Thanks so much.” 

“What are friends for?” 

We approached the school doors and immediately, after flicking feigned disinterested looks at each other, we broke into a fast walk. He reached the doors seconds before me, and with a satisfied look on his face opened the door with a flourish and a courtly bow. 

It was one of our things. Gabriel loved to be old fashioned; he liked opening doors, standing up when a woman left the table, he wouldn’t even curse in front of me or the Triplets. Honestly, I didn’t really care about all that—I just liked to needle him. So I speared him with a dirty look before flouncing in through the door. “Sexist pig.” 

“Just because you can pound grown men into the practice mat doesn’t mean you don’t get to be treated like a lady.” 

I rolled my eyes at his usual reply, but my lips curved into a smile. We’d been friends for eight years, ever since I moved in with my uncle. Gabriel was literally the boy next door. We hadn’t started out as friends, though. The minute we first caught sight of each other over the fence that parted his parents’ and my uncle’s houses, there had been instant friction. Gabriel was the leader of the neighborhood boys, while I was the strange and mysterious new kid on the block. I was a loner and I hardly ever talked. Gabriel was determined to break me as he had broken all the other kids in our neighborhood, but although I was quiet, I wasn’t the type to lie down and die. 

Thinking back, it was a good thing, actually. At the time I was angry, lonely and sad. I had just lost my mother and had to move away from everything familiar into a place completely new and, what was worse, I didn’t get to know anything. No one would even answer my questions. 

Who was my father? 

Where is my mother? 

What happened to her? 

Did she leave me? 

And what were these weird things I keep seeing, hearing, tasting, and feeling? 

Is that what took my mother? 

And why does everybody keep looking at me funny? 

And even worse, people pitied me because they thought my mother had left me. 

I helped around the house, listened to my uncle, did my chores, ate, slept, played with my cousins, but I didn’t cry, I didn’t talk and I showed no interest in doing anything, not even continuing my karate lessons that I used to love so much. 

Then Gabriel came and poked and poked and poked and poked… 

One day, I just exploded. Red hazed my eyes as I cocked back an arm and punched Gabriel. Being a nine year old boy and a midget with something to prove he punched back, both of us did our best to rip each other’s head off. 

But as I hit and clawed and kicked something happened inside me, something stretched and stretched and stretched and finally snapped. 

Embarrassingly, I burst into tears, and the tears—not to mention the snot—kept on coming, even when I opened my mouth and sank my teeth into his arm… 

…and he let me. It took a moment for me to notice that Gabriel wasn’t hitting me back. I let go of his arm and blinked at him. 

His face was a study of misery as he looked back at me. 

Then he did something totally unexpected. He lifted the arm that had my teeth marks on it and patted my head, slowly, gently. Again and again he patted the top of my head, and as our eyes met I realized that I had found myself a best friend. 

Over the years I became sure that Uncle Jim would have preferred if I had found a good, dutiful female best friend instead since Gabriel was a bit of a trouble maker, and he had a knack for persuading me to be one as well. 

Not that he had to try very hard. 

It also didn’t take long for me to realize that my friendship with Gabriel brought on a perk other than his ultra-cool tree house, one I could hardly believe. Whenever I touched him, whenever Gabriel spoke, it was like I entered into an isolation chamber where my senses dulled and turned…ordinary. 

I couldn’t sense them anymore, or hear them or taste them or feel them. Gabriel was like my ultimate shield and I couldn’t help but feel that we were fated to meet. Gabriel Shannah, my own little miracle. 

I elbowed my little miracle in the ribs, hard enough to make him wince. “So, Gabe, scored with any Borneo babes?” 

He gave me a look that was part amusement and part scowl. “A gentleman never kisses and tells.” 

“I’m not asking you to kiss me, I’m just asking you to tell.” 

“Oh, please, the second I pucker my lips, you’ll be all over me.” 

I scoffed at him, despite feeling a slight…um, discomfort at where the conversation was headed. “Come on, you told me about Tina Sheffield.” 

He arched a brow and sniffed as though offended. “I was eleven and didn’t know any better.” 

“Bet you don’t know any better now.” 

The insult to his manly prowess was too much for him to ignore. “How much?” 

“Why, Gabriel Shannah, are you trying to bet on a lady’s virtue?” 

Gabriel almost looked embarrassed. “You’re a bad influence on me.” 

“Uncle Jim said that you’re a bad influence on me.” 

“Still mad about that motorcycle thing, huh?” 

“You’re still banned from our household,” I retorted with mock seriousness. 

Gabe rolled his eyes. “This from a guy who let all of us play with knives when we were ten.” He put an arm around my shoulders and gave me a lopsided grin that could melt any woman’s heart at fifty paces. “Then we’ll just have to meet in secret in our tree house.” 

I fluttered my eyelashes. “A tryst, how romantic.” 

He chuckled before detangling his arm from me and turning left. “See you at lunch.” 

Now that he wasn’t looking, I felt it safe to look at him with an affectionate smile, even when our parting made my senses return back to what was normal for me. I popped my iPod ear buds back into place and walked with my eyes on my toes so as not to see anything, taking comfort in knowing that I would meet Gabriel again at lunch. 

Surely I could tough it out until then, right? 

Copyright © 2012 by D.F. Jules

1Once Upon A Time

The dream was like a scene from a bad horror movie, complete with the sound of ragged breaths, the low bass of heartbeats, and the creak of doors. There was even a storm outside, with lightning streaking across the night sky. 

How cliché. 

Unfortunately, I knew it wasn’t a dream, a nightmare, or a scene from a bad horror movie. 

It was a scene from my past. 

In it I could see the balloons stuck on the ceiling and the tables that were smeared with cake icing. Dirty dishes were stacked high in the sink along with dirty cups. The floor was riddled with torn ribbons and colorful paper, casualties of the birthday party I had that afternoon. 

I felt my heart tear as it had many times before when I saw my mother, an older version of myself with her black eyes, black straight hair, and slightly tanned skin, standing in the kitchen, her toes bare with nails painted a pale pink. 

Well, my mother said as she grinned at me, we’ve survived another year. Happy birthday, my darling girl. 

I saw myself grin back at her, happy and content and tired from my ninth birthday party. My first ever with friends; it was even held in our very own house. It was the longest time we had ever stayed in one place. 

Our neighbors knew us, my mom had a steady job, and I was in school with other kids. Other normal kids. My mom had finally trusted my judgment and my control over my ‘special’ talent. 

She shouldn’t have. 

I saw my mom frown; I could have repeated what she would say word for word, and I did. My lips formed the question as she asked my nine year old self, “Are you sure you haven’t seen or sensed any of them, sweetie?” 

I’ve dreamt of this particular memory a thousand times before, and each time I have, I’ve tried to answer with the truth in a sorry attempt to rid myself of the guilt, to change what had happened. 

Yes. Yes, I did. One of my teachers is one of them. She smelt of sunrise and flowers. 

I saw them here, just outside. Two of them just this afternoon, they were looking at our house! Mama, we have to go. We have to leave. Right now. 

But of course, no matter how hard I screamed, she couldn’t hear me. Instead, she smiled at my nine year old self—the little liar—who said, “No, mama. We’re good. Nothing here. Maybe they’re bored with us.” 

My mom chuckled, and the sound of it made me want to cry, “I don’t think so, baby. I know you like it here but stay sharp, okay?” 

My nine year old self looked into my mom’s eyes and lied with a straight face. “Yes, mama.” 

Then the scene changed into an endless hallway drenched in different shades of light and shadow, an endless maze, riddled with doors that seemed to go on forever, in which I ran and ran and called out, but I couldn’t find her. Every time I opened a door, it kept showing the same empty room. 

My mother’s empty room. 

Thunder rolled and lightning flashed outside her window. 

I woke up with a scream trembling at the top of my lungs, but I was ready for it. I had eight years to exercise control, after all. I swallowed the scream and blinked in the darkness. I watched shadow and light chase each other away in a fluid dance. It reminded me of my dream and my stomach clenched. 

I wiped sweat off my forehead, and sighed in disgust at my apparent weakness. It’s been eight years since that night, since my one lie destroyed everything that my mom had worked so hard for: our survival. 

And I blew it all for a stupid birthday party with stupid friends who haven’t even bothered to stay in touch. 

Idiot. 

I wrenched the covers away and pushed myself off the bed. A look out the window showed that the sun was rising; there would be no hope in returning to sleep now. Not that I even wanted to. Maybe some warm milk and Oreos would lift my mood. 

I got out of my room and walked down the hallway toward the kitchen. I had a nasty flashback of the dream and my heartbeat quickened, but I took long breaths and shook it off. 

I was awake, I was aware, and I was no longer that nine year old girl who was weak and easily tempted. Other than double-stuff Oreos and cookie dough ice cream, I, Leah Curran, had no weaknesses. 

“Leah?” a low baritone called out from a room that I just walked past. Well, I amended, double stuff Oreos, cookie dough ice cream, and all that’s left of my family members. My family relations have a strange knack for disappearing. My mom was only one of many. They went missing in bathrooms with no windows and someone waiting outside the door, in their offices during meetings, in buses between stops, in a crowd of people surrounded by their loved ones...heck, even in cells. They went missing when they were doing laundry, cooking dinner, paying bills, watching TV, posting the mail. Never was there a sign of a fight. Never were they found again. 

Oh, they also have a nasty habit of going crazy, as in padded-room-straightjacket-speaking-in-tongues-on-suicide-watch type of crazy. 

Some said it was bad genes. 

Some said it was mental illness. 

Some said it was a curse. 

My opinion? 

It was a bit of all three. 

Since the door was slightly open I pushed it further to see the cramped room that was my uncle’s office, as well as a manga lover’s/artist’s/graphic designer’s wet dream. One wall was scattered with drawings, paintings, prints, and sketches. Black and white done in pencil and charcoal, in ink and even in soy sauce, bold colors done in acrylic, in oils, in water colors, with markers. Some were even done in make-up, which had earned him the wrath of his wife Maggie and their daughters, the Triplets; Juliet, Ophelia and Titania (don’t ask) whose make-up he ‘borrowed’. He didn’t bother with mine because, much to my aunt’s and The Triplet’s dismay, I don’t own any. Part of my devious plan to stay invisible. 

Another wall was covered by a mural of dragons, both European and Asian, with a backdrop of a raging sea, while another was decorated with shiny, pointy objects. Swords and knives of all kinds: a katana along with its wakizashi and three tanto, a broadsword, a claymore, two khukri, a sabre, a scimitar, a jian, a rapier with an elaborate hilt, and a keris. On a place of honor right in the middle of the array of deadly weapons were three sai, the triple-pronged sword, a birthday gift from his daughters. 

Other fathers received neckties. Uncle Jim received swords. 

I wouldn’t even start on his stash of secret weapons: kunai, shuriken, acupuncture needles, stiletto knives, blow darts…it was better not to think about it. The swords were cool though, especially the katana. Once in a while, he even got it out and trained with it. 

Other men might be gun buffs, but Uncle Jim? He was more of a traditional man. When we’re naughty he makes us clean and oil all of the swords and knives…and there were a lot of them. 

But, I digress. 

Looking at the contents of the room, there were books stacked all over the place, almost as high as my waist. Autobiographies, books on world history, mythology, and religion, even self-help books and fiction of every type. There were even bodice-rippers, for God’s sake. Nobody could ever accuse my uncle of having a one-track mind. 

I stepped inside and resigned myself to the chance of having bruised toes. When I stepped on something squishy, I bravely ignored it. 

Uncle Jim was bent over his drawing table, with paper and markers of different colors spread at his elbows. On the other desk, shoved to the far corner of the room, one of his Macs pounded out Nine Inch Nails’ Meet Your Master, while the bigger and more complicated Mac was sporting a half-finished schematic of some kind of ship. Uncle Jim was a stout man in his late forties who could still pass for thirty due to his insistence on healthy living. He doesn’t smoke, hardly ever drink, jogs five miles a day, and does Tai Chi, Yoga, and several martial arts in his spare time. He meditates in the morning and whenever he has something in his mind, he does Kyudo or archery. 

I figured there had to be something to healthy living, because every Sunday—which he dubbed family time—the Triplets, Aunt Maggie, and I—spent the miles glaring daggers at Uncle Jim’s back while we struggled to keep up with him. My uncle’s motto, “A family who exercises together, stays together,” had quickly changed to “A family who suffers together, stays together” due to my cousins’ groans, moans, and agonized screams as we stretched, shuffled, and sparred. 

I didn’t mind so much, due to the fact that I had already taken multiple styles of karate lessons ever since I’d been able to walk. Ophelia also shared her father’s obsession with martial arts, but the other two girls and their mother bitched a storm whenever they got their asses kicked. 

Uncle Jim always excused his interest in martial arts and weapons as inspiration for his job. As an artist and writer for Fantasy Inc., the leader of today’s fantasy themed graphic novels/fiction novels, he really did get to use his vast knowledge of traditional weapons. Millions of people followed his graphic novels religiously. Several of his works had even been made into games and novels which explained why he could do whatever he wanted whenever he wanted to do it. We said it was because he had an unquenchable blood lust and was born in the wrong century. 

Uncle Jim finished inking a line of hair before he finally lifted his eyes to smile at me. “Can’t sleep?” 

“Dream.” I didn’t bother to explain; he knew what my dreams were about. “You?” 

He pushed his glasses up on his nose with ink stained fingers. “Deadline. Remind me to beat the snot out of Jack the next time I see him.” 

I smirked. Jack was his friend and agent who never failed to nag my uncle about his work. 

“School’s starting today.” 

“Yeah.” 

“You all right with that?” 

“Can’t hide forever.” 

At that, Uncle Jim smiled. “It’s not in your nature to hide.” 

My stomach plummeted as my dream came back to me in high definition. “It’d be better if it was.” 

Again, I didn’t have to explain; he already knew what I was referring to. “Maia’s disappearance was not your fault.” 

I speared him with a sharp look at the mention of my mother’s name. “You know better than that. If I hadn’t been so selfish, and told her about—“ 

“You were nine. You wanted a home, you didn’t want to celebrate your birthday on the road, or move from one place to another like you had so many times before, and you wanted friends.” He shrugged, “You just wanted what every normal nine year old—“ 

“But I’m not, am I? I’m not normal. I’m a freak, and freaks should watch out if they don’t want to be dragged into the streets, tied to a stake, and burnt.” 

“There will be no tying or burning in this house.” He started inking a new page. “Unless I say so.” 

“Unc—“ 

He sighed, long and hard, as if he’d heard this a hundred times before and was tired of it. “Leah, your mother was the family that I wished desperately for when I was stuck in an orphanage. I would die for her as I would die for you, but that doesn’t mean that I should be blind to her faults.” He put down his pen and lifted his blue, blue eyes. His blond Aryan looks must have stuck out like a sore thumb in my mother’s side of the family who all had dark hair, dark eyes, and dark complexions. “The truth was, when you showed signs that you had inherited the family trait, she panicked, so she took whatever she could and took you on the road so you’d be safe. I understood that, even when I didn’t agree with the choices she made, but she made the mistake of depending on you too much. Instead of using and honing her own talent, she counted on yours. She let her own ability wither when she should’ve used it to protect you.” He lifted a hand when I opened my mouth to protest. “You shouldn’t have lied, yes, but she shouldn’t have grown complacent.” 

“I miss her.” My voice broke at the end and he patted my hand. 

“I miss her too, sweetheart.” We both looked at the framed picture that hung on the wall in front of his drawing table. My mom’s hand-drawn face smiled back at us. It was a cover from Uncle Jim’s first graphic novel that had broken national. Demon Marked was a story about a mother who had to leave her daughter for her own safety, and so hit the road, battling mythological creatures and monsters in order to find a way to kill the demon which she had accidentally sold her soul to when she was seven. 

If only it was that simple. 

But there were no monsters in my story, and I knew that my mother didn’t leave of her own choice. If she really, really had to, I knew that my mother would only have left me if she was sure I would be taken care of. I also knew that if she was alive, she would’ve found a way to come back to me. 

“How about school? Is it safe for you?” 

“It’s a school; you know how they are about schools. It’s like Wal-Mart for them. Everything you need in one stop.” 

He snickered. 

“It’s not funny.” I glowered at him, but it didn’t have any heat behind it. 

“Any of them notice you?” 

“No.” I try to keep my tone light. “I’m pretty much invisible at school.” 

A small smile played on my uncle’s lips, as if he knew how much my invisibility grated on my nerves. 

He was right, hiding wasn’t in my nature. I was more of an offense rather than a defense kind of person but acting out on it had cost me my mother. Uncle Jim and his family had taken me in and there was no way that I would endanger them, or the life that I had now. So I’d stay invisible. I’d tuck my head down and ignore the limitations that drove me insane. 

“Seen them pop up anywhere new?” Uncle Jim got the town map out from one of his secret compartments (when the Triplets and I were twelve, we tried to find out just how many secret compartments existed in the house. We stopped when we reached eighty-nine). He shook the map loose and spread it on the computer table. The map was filled with dots of two different colors, and they only increased in number each and every time the map was pulled out. I knew he was starting to worry. 

Since the night my mom disappeared, I had gotten the normal life I wanted. I had my own room and my own stuff, and I didn’t have to wake up at midnight and sleep for the remainder of the night in a moving car. I had people that I had actually grown up with, and things that I had been forced to throw out because I had possessed them for too long.I never had to move again. 

But I would’ve traded it all if only my mom would come back. 

It was ironic really—every time my mom had seen one of them, it had always been time to run. Uncle Jim, however, didn’t believe in running. He believed in gathering information and making your stand. Besides, he once told me, they probably have better things to do than chasing after you. 

That’s what he said, but every time I dazed out or was acting strangely, he always ushered us out of whatever place we were in. Every time we went somewhere, he always asked me whether I could see them before going in. 

Apparently, making a stand doesn’t mean that you jump recklessly into action either. 

“I saw one at Gerard’s,” I told him. 

“The ice cream place?” 

I nodded, and he put a blue dot on Gerard’s. 

“There are two more at the fire station.” 

He snorted and added two more green dots at the fire station. “Figures. Anywhere else?” 

“No. That’s about it.” I eyed the map and felt my innards twist. “There’s so many of them now.” 

“It’s a big town.” He folded the map, pushed a decorative knob on his desk, and a drawer popped open beside his waist. “But if push comes to shove, we’ll move.” 

I shuffled my black cat slipper-encased feet and blurted out, “My eighteenth birthday is coming up, Uncle Jim. I could—” 

“Don’t even think about it.” He lifted up a pen and started to ink another page. “If you even try to run away, I’ll unleash the Triplets on you.” 

Gratitude warred with worry as I picked at a hang nail. “It’s just that—” 

“No.” 

“But, uncle—” 

“I’m ignoring you. Go away.” 

“But—” 

“Leah, I’m working. If I don’t finish this in time, we won’t get food on our table.” 

I rolled my eyes and gave up on the running-away scheme. It was impractical, and I really, really didn’t want the Triplets on my ass. “Uncle Jim?” 

“Hm?” 

“Didn’t we make you promise that you would never use our faces again in your work?” 

“…yeah. So?” 

“That face you’re inking looks very much like one of the Triplets.” 

He didn’t even blink. “You’re hallucinating due to sleep deprivation. Go back to sleep.” 

“It’s six.” 

“Then make some coffee; you know how your aunt is without her coffee.” 

“It’s wrong you know. Using their faces without their consent is like copyright infringement.” 

“I’m their dad. That makes the only copyright I’m infringing my own. Go make coffee.” 

I chuckled at his answer and went to make coffee. 

Copyright © 2012 by D.F. Jules

Publishing and Dreamcast

Since Touched is currently in publishing process, I thought, I'll gather up some data for marketing purposes. And this blog is looking pretty empty.

I thought, I'll work on the Dreamcast first and let's start with the Unholy Three

(Dean Geyer as Gabriel Shannah)

Gabriel or Gabe is the bad boy with a  heart of gold. As Leah likes to point out, he picks up strays like other people pick up STDs. He's a pretty nice guy...until you cross him, and then be careful because nobody does payback like Gabe. People are attracted to him, the way people are compelled to play with fire, there's an intensity to him, a kind of YOLO quality to how he lives his life that makes people gravitate to him.

As pointed out by the Triplets, everybody's Gabe and Leah's Gabe are two very different people. With everybody else, he's more calculated, less generous, and less laid-back than when he's with Leah. For Leah, Gabe is a safe haven, not just because he is able to negate her overwhelming powers, but because in essence he personalizes safety to her, just because of how he is when he's around her and that feeling, that peace is everything to Leah.

Gabe doesn't hesitate very often, he's the kind of guy who always gets what he wants when he wants it, but when he comes across something that he knows is valuable, he is willing to take his time. He knows the value of patience. 

(Max Iron as Justin Real)

Justin is an enigma, you are never quite sure what he is thinking. But you do know that he is always thinking, that he always has something up his sleeve. Being who he is, being what he is, he is use to people falling in line with his opinions, following his orders without question and simply obeying him. 

He is a conscientious leader, but that doesn't mean that he hesitates about moving his soldiers about in the way he sees fit. He is used in manipulating people to do what he wants them to do, to ordering rather than asking which is why he clashes so much with Leah who rebels every time she has just cause. 

(Missy Peregrym as Leah Curran)

Leah tries very hard not to let her powers control her life to no avail, after having to accept that in the harshest way possible, she decides the only way to live with it is to minimize all uses of her powers which means isolating herself from the world. Leah keeps her head down through the years with only Gabe and her family for company. She doesn't make friends, she doesn't go out, and when your body is your worst enemy, you have to find a way to control it. 

She trains her senses and her body under the tutelage of Nakamura-sensei who runs her--and Gabe and Ophelia--ragged in his dojo. Nakamura-sensei's brand of exercise is not for the faint-hearted. 

Aside from that, Leah can find peace in the presence of her best friend, Gabe, having him around tamps down her sensitive senses and lets her experience the quiet that so many people take for granted. Leah blessed the day she met him when they were nine years old and hated each other's guts.

Leah doubts herself, her body, the world, but one thing she never doubts is Gabe.